What I'm Feeling Today On 21st November

God , if he's not my mate , make him such a history for me , God , help me to forget him right now . Too many hard things I've seen with my young eyes . Too many rocks in my life which make me hard to walk , give me a good road to walk and through this life until the death angel pick me up . God , why I loved him so much . And also why you didn't give me a good way for me and him . I really really need your help to give me the way which will make we both happy forever . Why you must separated us ? Why God ? Is this the reply of the things that I've done in the past ? Please forgive me , God .

What I Felt Yesterday On 20th November

Up to you , if you want me still to be your best friend , don't say those sucks word anymore , okay ! I don't like what you've said before . Hoah . Why you must angry when I knew that secret ? What a suck things , boy ! FOOL BOY , HEY WE'RE BEST FRIENDS ! WHY YOU TREAT ME AS IF I'M NOT YOUR BEST FRIEND !

What I Felt Yesterday On 19th November

Hum . I must to be happy or sad . I sing 2 songs at school's event on November 26th . Hmm . I hope my performance is good :)) And I still haven't any ideas for my presentation as a travel agency at ILP , anyone know ?

What I'm Feeling Today On 18th November

I'm sick . I'm sick . I'm sick . Bored . Huff . BTW I'M IN "HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH" CONDITION ! T________T W.T.F ! And I miss LUKY , really really miss him . T,T

What I'm Feeling Today On 17th November

OOOh . Today is Andrew's , Erick's , Andy's birthday :) Hahaha . Oh my God , my love is on fire again :)) *FALLING IN LOVE MODE ON* Of course with Luky , impossible with other guys :/

What I'm Feeling Today On 16th November

Hmm . Jaya collapsed . I was shock ! Huh . What happened with him :I ? Bored . Bored . Just bored :( . Hmm . I'm regretting that I slept at 1 am on last Saturday just for said "Happy Birthday" to Aditya . It wasn't mean to him . I'm upset because of Aditya . Bye everyone , see you in the next posting , I wanna Facebooking again :)

What I Felt Yesterday On 14th November and What I'm Feeling Today On 15th November

14th November : sleep at 1 am just to say " happy birthday " to Aditya ; 15th November : EVERYBODY, TODAY IS ADITYA'S BIRTHDAY ! SAY "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM" ! IF YOU DON'T SAY "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM, I'LL KILL YOU RIGHT NOW ! Hahaha JKJK :P ! It's IMPOSSIBLE ! Wkwkwkw I'm so sleepy today , last night I slept at 1 am, just for said "Happy Birthday" to my beloved bestie :P He's mature enough, he's 17 years old :) And today is really a bad+nice day ... :) Bad: I can't do anything, Nice: Because of Aditya's birthday also I'm the 2nd who said "Happy Birthday" to him, the first is his mother :) I"M SO HAPPY... Thank's Aditya, your birthday bring happiness for me :))

What I'm Feeling Today On 13th November

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY :) Today is a nice day :) Friday addicted so much :)

Special Edition For Luky Part III

His Biography :
Luky Hermawan
He was born on 31st December 1992
His zodiac is Capricorn
His shio is monkey
He loves hanging out
He can speaks English , Mandarin , French , Indonesia , and Japanese well
He likes Michelle Branch's songs
Now , he's in his twelfth grade senior high school
His handphone number is 085691379xxx
His telephone number is 65144xxx
He lives at Kemayoran

Special Edition For Luky Part II

Yeah , he's Luky Luky Luky Luky Luky Luky Luky Luky Luky Luky Hermawan Hermawan Hermawan Hermawan Hermawan Hermawan Hermawan Hermawan Hermawan Hermawan :)

Special Edition For Luky

Luky , hmm ...
He :
* isn't consistent
* makes me wanna angry , sometimes
* is freak
* arrogant
although , sometimes , his ugliness really annoying me , but he's still my death love , yes , he's Luky Hermawan :)

Every Time

Every time when I'm alone , I always think about you , what are you doing now ? how are you ? do you miss me too ? I'm just thinking about you . You're the best in my heart , nothing can replace you , since we met at Mandarin Expert , I've fell in love with you , Every night I see the sky , only you who always appear in my mind , sometimes I wanna bury all the memories which we've done together , I used to do that ! But oh NO , I can't do that , once I think you're my death love , and my feeling always say that you're my death love , and I'm sure , really really sure about that , and I'm so happy to accept that fact . Actually , I'm so scared to send you a message , because I've said that " You're less work, a waste of pulses only to send the message that is not useful for me ! And I think I'm not willing to waste my pulses for you ! " and after I send it , I really really regret it ! Every day I wanna to send a message , but I'm scared If you think that I'm not consistent . It's just a camouflage ! :) But I'm so sure that you're my death love , Luky Hermawan :)

What I'm Feeling Today On 12th November

For the first , to Afri and Claudia who are my best friends , I'm sad too , I can feel what do you feel , guys :) I always beside you to make you laugh and smile again :)) ! And this is a wonderful day , because all which I've lost come back again :) And I'm pleasure to get them back :) Thank's God ! I love this day although without him in my life anymore , but this love will be forever , hun :) . And a new day has come .....

Love Drunk

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover !
I love you forever, forever is over !
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight !
So don't call me crying, say hello to goodbye !
Cause just one thing would make me say !
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover !
I love you forever, but now it's over !

What I'm Feeling Today On 11th November

Hoah . Same as yesterday . I just wanna to kill her , I'm sick of her face ! :/ Can I have day without seeing her face ? I HATE HER SO MUCH !

What I Felt Yesterday On 10th November

I just wanna to kill her !!! :/

What I'm Feeling Today On 9th November

Hoamm . Bastard was discussing with my lovely Lele , what's the point of that actually , because I don't like her so much :I Huh , hey Bastard , It's better If you shut up your shit mouth :) BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE YOU SO MUCH :I

Daddy

Dad , I love you so much , you're the best gift I've ever had from God :) . Nothing can replace you in my life , you're so important for me , daddy . You willing to sacrifice for the sake of my happiness . I really really love you . I hope , we'll be together forever daddy , thank you for all that you've done to me :) . You're my guardian angel , dad ! I WRITE THIS JUST FOR YOU , DADDY , FROM THE DEEPEST OF MY HEART :)

What I'm Feeling Today On 8th November

Hoamm . >0< . Really really a nice day and also a bored day ever . Huh . My father is in Bogor . I hope he'll be safe everywhere and everytime :) , because I love my daddy so much ! :)) I love him more than everything in this world :)) . And beside my daddy , I also really really love Luky :)) . He's my death love :)) ever after !

What I'm Feeling Today On 7th November

^_^ . Today I download all Boys Like Girls' songs , because they're really really good songs , and I love them !!! n.n I've 3 words to describe this day : happy , happy , and enjoy ! :))

What I'm Feeling Today On 6th November

I hate Anastasya who has stabbed me from my back !!! I hate hate hate , and also I don't like Haycheal who is same like Anastasya !!! Talk to my ass !!! Huh . I feel bored with all boring daily routine , can I try a new one ?

What I Felt Yesterday On 4th and What I'm Feeling Today On 5th November

What else is going to happen other than this? Junior who doesn't know himself , besties who bossy and stab me in the back , what else ? I'm so tired of this condition ! I'm sick of these ! For one of my bestie's friend who likes a BASTARD ! What else ? Huh ? I'm sick of these !!!!!!!!!!

What I'm Feeling Today On 3rd November

Huh . I don’t like to see my besties fighting , can you through this problem without fighting ? I’m so sad to see this . Today , I’m having my Biology test , pray for me all !!! :) Hmm , guys , I really really really really really really miss Luky Hermawan :( , although we’re fighting now !!!  Maybe he’s really really my death love forever . :( I’m so sad to lose him … :( :( I’m sick of all these problems now . What The **** !!!

What I Felt Yesterday On 2nd November

Huh . I don’t like that girl , actually , but I’m still generous and patient through her attitude . Wew , Ceremony ! I hate to do that ! I must stand up for an hour … In Hokian language named “MOYUNG” . Only Chinese people know that word . Anjas hadn’t school in here anymore now . I’m so sad , I mean I’m really really sad .

What I'm Feeling Today On 1st November

Huh . I'm lazy to have this day ... I don't know why ... But I hate to see everyone who in a relationship ... Is it wrong ??? BTW no words named "LOVE" in my life's dictionary anymore ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 31st October

I'm sorry guys I can't hang out with you all ! My body is sick because of competition yesterday ... I'm sorry Jas , I can't go to your house , even though this is the last day I can see you ... I love you so much my BFF ! :)

What I'm Feeling Today On 30th October

Huh . Today is the last day I meet Anjas . Anjas , bye-bye , take care !!! And we are having competition with DBB and they're CHEAT !!! I HATE THEM SO MUCH !!!

What I'm Feeling Today On 29th October

I'M SO SAD !!! ANJAS WILL MOVE TO MALANG !!! Sad , certainly ... Because he's my best friend since 7th grade ... To Anjas : Hey , Ucup , you're our bestie , don't forget us !!! And Anjas , we'll always love you !!! And today is crying day ... We're crying for you , Anjas Ucup :) We hope you'll be a success person and will be a better person in Malang , we'll always pray for you ... We're crying because you're the one who always make us happy and laugh ! You always told a joke , if we were sad ... We'll miss you so much , Anjas dear ... :'(

WTF

You said I'm melancholy so I won't be melancholy anymore , you said I'm dramatic so I won't be dramatic anymore , you said I must to find another guy so I won't find other guy beside you !

My ...

NO COMMENT :X

My Besties

JHS :) : Afri Renaldi Siahaan , Kevin Tjia , Anjas Mara

My Bestie

Pradana Aditya
* A guy who always besides me when I'm feeling sad or happy , he's my bestie !!!

What I Felt Yesterday On 28th October

Hoah . I'm sad because my besties are fighting , they're Udin and Ucup ... So sad , what should I do , guys , to make them on peace again ?

What I'm Feeling Today On 27th October

Hoah . I won't love a guy anymore , they're just WTF people ... For Turbo , you're my sunshine who always make me feel happy every I wake up , you always give me a spirit everyday for through this life , you'll always be my sunshine , because you'll always be my best friend ever after ... :)

What I'm Feeling Today On 26th October

Hey ... Guys ! I'm waiting for 15th November ... My best friend's birthday ... :) He's Aditya ... Hmm . Guys , I think , it's time for me to forget Luky , and focus to the new 'lovely' one ... I love him , because he always made me smile again , when I was sad !!! This is it !!! This is which I find !!! ~_~ Huh . The tests are so hard ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 25th October

Huh . Tired because last night I was messaging with Turbo until 1 am ... And I replied Luky's message at 3 am ... Huh . Luky WTF . I hate him . FOR LUKY : "STOP TALKING ABOUT YOUR FUCKIN BUSY ANYMORE ! I HATE YOU !"

What I'm Feeling Today On 24th October

Hey , I feel bored , why Saturday always makes me bored ? Anyone knows ? Yeah , On saturday I always and I just think about him , actually I'm trying to forget him , but I can't , even though I've tried so hard ... Whether it's called true love ?

What I Felt Yesterday On 23rd October

Huh . I'm sick . I've got a bad headache , I almost die ... ! T.T Tired , I've had my basketball extracurricular . But I'm happy I can play well today not like last week , It was really really bad ! Hoah . I always do bored daily routines ...

Kau Raih dan Kau Lepas

Kau yang ajari ku mencinta ... Kau yang memberiku harapan atas cintamu ... Kau yang membuka pintu hatiku ... Kau yang mencairkan rasa yang beku di hati ini ... Dan lihatlah , semua yang engkau inginkan , telah kulakukan , dan kau tetap kecewa , hingga engkau pun pergi , 'tuk mencari cinta ke lain hati ... Kau meraihku namun kau melepaskanku ... Meninggalkanku , melupakanku , dan menghancurkan semua harapku ... Apakah kini ku takkan mencinta lagi ... Tanpa dirimu , tanpa kasihmu , dan semua yang t'lah kau beri padaku ... Apakah kini ku takkan mencinta lagi ... Tanpa dirimu , tanpa kasihmu , dan semua yang kau beri padaku ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 22nd Of October

HUH ! SASSY GUY SUCKS ! Yeah . Yeah . Yeah . Today I don't have good events . I just wanna say about several things to someone who always I call Kyky . Ky , actually , I really really love you , but you always thought that if I don't like you , It's a big WRONG , dear , but I think the best way for us now , we each go away , because we are equally hurt ... Forget all the happiness moments we ever had ... I'm so sorry I've hurt you so deep ...

Always Be My Baby

We were as one babe ... For a moment in time ... And it seemed everlasting , that you would always be mine ... Now you want to be free , so I'm letting you fly ... 'Cause I know in my heart babe , our love will never die , no ... You'll always be a part of me ... I'm a part of you indefinitely ... Girl don't you know you can't escape me ... Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby ... And we'll linger on ... Time can't erase a feeling this strong ... No way you're never gonna shake me ... Ooh darling , 'cause you'll always be my baby ... I ain't gonna cry no ... And I won't beg you to stay , if you're determined to leave girl , I will not stand in your way ... But inevitably you'll be back again ... 'Cause you know in your heart babe ... Our love will never end ... No ... You'll always be a part of me ... I'm part of you indefinitely ... Girl don't you know you can't escape me ... Ooh darling , 'cause you'll always be my baby ... And we'll linger on and on ... Time can't erase a feeling this strong ... No way you're never gonna shake me ... Ooh darling , 'cause you'll always be my baby ... I know that you'll be back Girl ... When your days and your nights get a little bit colder, oh I know that , You'll be right back, baby ... Well, baby believe me it's only a matter of time ... You'll always be apart of me ... And I'm part of you indefinitely ... Girl don't you know you can't escape me ... Ooh darling , 'cause you'll always be my baby ... And we'll linger on and on , and we will linger on and on ... Time can't erase a feeling this strong ... No way you're never gonna shake me ... Ooh darling , 'cause you'll always be my ... My baby ... You'll always be apart of me ... And I'm part of you indefinitely ... Girl don't you know you can't escape me ... Ooh darling , 'cause you'll always be my baby ... You and I will always be ... And we'll linger on and on ... Time can't erase a feeling this strong , you and I , No way you're never gonna shake me , you and I , Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby ... Always Be My Baby ....

Kuingin Kau Tahu

Selama aku pergi , ku akan mengingatmu , tak hanya sementara , selalu dan selalu kurindukan senyummu untukku disini ... Kuingin kau tahu , meskipun ku jauh , ku ada di hatimu , kuingin kau tahu , meskipun kau jauh , kau tetap milikku , selamanya ... Ku bernyanyi untukmu , untukmu yang kurindukan , tetaplah setia menungguku 'kan kembali ... Kuingin kau tahu , meskipun ku jauh , kau ada di hatiku , kuingin kau tahu , meskipun kau jauh , kau tetap milikku selamanya ...

Ajari Aku

Ajari aku 'tuk bisa menjadi yang engkau cinta , agar ku bisa memiliki rasa , yang luar biasa untukku dan untukmu ... Kuharap engkau mengerti akan semua yang kupinta , karena kau cahaya hidupku , malamku , 'tuk terangi jalanku yang berliku ... Hanya engkau yang bisa , hanya engkau yang tahu , hanya engkau yang mengerti , semua inginku ... Ajari aku 'tuk bisa mencintaimu , ajari aku 'tuk bisa mengerti kamu ... Mungkinkah semua akan terjadi pada diriku ... Hanya engkau yang tahu ... Ajari aku tuk bisa mencintaimu ...

Love

Love is general . Love is universal . Love is everything . Love isn't only for someone who we love . Love is for family , friends , and certainly our boy or girlfriend . Love is give , never hope to get the change . Love is a gift from God . Love is holy .

What I'm Feeling On 21st Of October

Yeah . I've downloaded a song , it's 'BISPAK' ... Yeah . ^^ . Oooh God , I miss Luky so much , he's my life , he's my soulmate ever after ... I love him , I need him , I want him !!! I need you , baby ... n,n Hoah . Insane mode on ... ! NO COMMENT AT ALL !

What I'm Feeling Today On 20th October

Guys , can you imagine , if you love someone but he's gone away from you ??? What do you feel ??? Yeah , I really really hate him , but I can't say the lie that I hate him , I truly love him ... Yeah this is a hard problem which I must through ... Oh my God , please bless me all the time , love me all the time , help me to through my problems in my life until the time is come ... God , I can't walk alone in this hard life ... You're my hero ... Only You can help to make this problem lighter ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 19th October

Bad , Shitty , Fucky , Bitchy , Harlot , I don't know , I hate you Luky ,,, NO COMMENT ! JEALOUS MODE ON !

What I'm Feeling Today On 18th October

Huh . I love twitting , but I hate twitter , because so many harlots in twitter ... Almost look like Miyabi , guys ... Maybe for boys , You all like this thing ! Huh . Oh God It's Sunday ... I mean a bad sad mad Sunday , I prefer Saturday to Sunday ... Because on Saturday , we can more relax than another days ! So , I love Saturday , Saturday is my favourite day !

What I'm Feeling Today On 17th October

Hey ! Anyone can change my habit on this Saturday ??? Huh ... Yeah , you know that I'm just tweeting , blogging , facebooking ... What a pig do ... Yeah . Oh My Gosh . My number is dying , Rp 0,- left ... What can I do with it ??? Everyone , now , I'm not use XL anymore , I change it to IM3 , more comfortable , I feel ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 16th October

Hmm . I miss ... yeah ... I miss him who really mean to me ... The most wonderful guy I've ever knew ... I've ever met ! Today , I'm fighting with 'BISPAK' ... My best friends know that disgusting thing certainly !!! Huh . What the hell you are !!! Hey you are my junior , bastard harlot !!! Don't hurt my best friend !!! I hate you !!! Where's your fuckin' mother , huh ??? You just can stand under your mother's ass !!! Don't be shy to ask me to give my shit to you ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 15th October

I feel sad , angry , bored , longing someone who really mean to me , happy , I don't know what I'm feeling , like a crazy , freaky girl , I think ... Sad because I miss L*** , happy because I learn new song in choir extracurricular , Beauty and The Beast , what a romantic song it is ! And I'm happy , because I can acting in my drama well ... ^_^ Angry because ... Hmm ... I don't think so ?

What I Felt Yesterday On 14th October

I hate . I hate . She's really smartass ... T.T Hate . Hate . Tired , everyday , certainly I see her face , huh ... Because have a bad day ... T.T T.T T.T Today , I debate at ILP , about the issue of doomsday on 2009 ... Yeah . It's challenging !!! I love it !!!

What I'm Feeling Today On 13th October

Oh my God , I feel sorry to know that , I've hurt him who really really loves me ! What a fool I am ! Huh . Forgive me **** , I just can't show my love to you ... ! I swear about my reason ... Actually , I like you , I need you , I want you , and I really really love you , also getting your love is a must ... !!! =.=" Huh . Actually , too , Aditya is just my bestfriend ... Don't be jealous , honey ... Today I feel down because of my best friend ... She has made me angry ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 12th October

DUDE !!! I FEEL SAD , ANGRY , AND BORED !!! And also I'm yearning someone special ... Hahha . It's **** . I'm sure that my bestfriends have known him . Hahahahahaha . I'm a crazy girl , yeah , like a depressed monkey , stressed because of love , school , and many things ... I'm AFIRA AFREAKY !

What I'm Feeling Today On 11th October

Huuuuuh . Bad mood+down . I don't know what I must do !!! Just facebooking , having my private course , tweeting , listening to RAN , and visiting my grandma ... Damn . I feel bored today . I'm sick of Sunday . These are the list of days which I love so much ... :
* Friday
* Saturday

What I'm Feeling Today On 10th October

Today , I feel a bit happy because Luky still wanted to reply my message . But it was just a while . And then he didn't reply my message when I said about Aditya . Huh sad T.T . What happened with him ... I don't like the NEW Luky ... I want the OLD Luky ! But what can I do ? I'm just a weak human .

What I'm Feeling Today On 9th October

Hoah . Hate friday ... My basketball trainer is absent ... I can't concentrate play basketball ... I hate you . BTW dude , my scores are good ... I'm really really happy . But I'm boring because today I must go to ILP ... T.T Can I have a day without courses ?

What I'm Feeling Today On 8th October

Huh . Today I feel so happy and so in love ... Haha . Dude , I want to join thursday basketball extraccuricular , but I wanna join choir too . Confused ... Wkwkwk . I don't like three juniors in school but not hate them . They're really smartass ... Haha . I can't do anything . BTW tomorrow is middle of semester report day ... And I don't like it ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 7th October

Hoah . I think today is the worst day in my life . I hate my junior in school ... I mean 2 JUNIORS !!! I don't want to say anything about them ... I just can say "I really hate them" . Huh . I've debated at ILP just now ... Uh ... I'm emotion because of that debate ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 6th October

Everyone have knew that I'm in love with someone ... Hehe . Anastasya had already known about him . Lalala~ I'll leave Luky exactly , because I don't want hurt because of my love ... He never understands me ... Actually , I wanna kill Luky !!! But I can't because I love him too ... Anyway today is a good day , because my biology scores are good ... Hahaha . I'm really really really happy ... Yeah ... ! My biology teacher has taught again this morning ... I'm glad to see that ! Thank God It's Tuesday !!!

What I'm Feeling Today On 5th October

ARGH . ARGH . ARGH . Bored . I hate Monday . Tj and me agree that Monday is the worst day ! I don't know why but I feel bored ! I've got bad score in ADM ... Shitty lesson !!! Hoah . BTW dude , I'm in love with someone in Facebook ... Hehehe . He's ......................... . Secret ! And BTW guys , I'm admire someone at school ... He's my best friend , exactly ... Wkakaka . BTW Anyway Busway I hate my soulmate ... Because the longer he was getting weird . I don't know what to do ... But I still love him ... >.<

What I'm Feeling Today On 4th October

Huh . All time , I'm just facebooking and tweeting , nothing to do , just in front of computer since this morning ... And I forget to do my homework ! Fool right ? =) Guys , he's so nice , he always listens to me when I have a problem , he always gives me advices and supports , really really nice guy , right ? By the way , Luky's photo is really really handsome ! You can check it @ Facebook !

What I Felt Yesterday On 3rd October

Bored . Just attending wedding invitation @ Bogor ... Nothing to do ... Guys . I've knew my family's secret and I HATE THAT SECRET ! I hate-hate-hate ... I wanna kill them ! No-no-no ! I'm not insane guys !

What I'm Feeling Today On 2nd October

Huh . I'm down because of my best friends , he's Stefanus . Ugh ! I hate you guys ! Today , I'm so tired because of played basketball ... Huh . Oyeah dude I think 'brondong' is better than A or Luky ... What about your advice , what should I choose ??? BTW , today is BATIK'S DAY ! We won from Malaysia ! Batik , Pendet Dance , Reog Dance , and etc are ours ! Not Malaysia !!! We're not a weak country !!!

What I'm Feeling Today On 1st October

Huw . Maybe I won't love A anymore ... Hmm . Maybe I'll love 'brondong' haha ... No No I won't be playgirl , dude , it's not good ... Actually I still really really love Luky but ... I'm tired because he never understands me , what I'm feeling and my love ... Maybe I'll leave him forever ... But anyway for this time I don't want think anyone ... I want to be a happy girl ... It's my life purpose , actually ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 30th September

Woohooo . Today is my best friend's birthday . You know that I love her so much . Give me suggestion please ... What gift should I give to her ? I'm confused ... BTW Everybody I hate Malaysia ... Yeah . You can open www.topix.com Make your account there and leave comment about MALAYSIA VS INDONESIA . Certainly , I support Indonesia ... !!! And today I'm so sad ... My soulmate reject again my phone ...

Baby Boy

You're always in my mind . Every time , every minute , every second , I'm just thinking of you ... I want you to know what I'm feeling now ... But it's impossible ... I'm afraid ... Our ages is too far ... Not too far , but for you , the different is too far , right ? Actually just 3 years ... I have tried to love another boy , but I can't do it ... It's really really hard for me ... How important our memories baby ? Is it really really not important for you ? What should I do to make you believe that only you who always makes me miss in my heart and in my mind ... ? Certainly I'll do everything for you to make you believe me love ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 29th September

Huh . Just feeling sad , because Luky reject my phone . You know dude ??? Luky is really really angry to me ... Maybe he doesn't want to forgive me anymore ... But tell me please , what is my mistake baby ??? Hoah . You don't know how much I love you ... I realize you don't know what I'm feeling ... I want you to know that but ... I'm really really scary ... But I'm sure ... My heart is for real ... and just for you ... Actually I know exactly how you feel honey ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 28th September

Yeah . My sadness is closed by my lovely friends . They can make me laugh , so I can forget my problem although just a while ... But It's okay ... Yeah . Yeah . Yeah . SWT ... What a shit he is ... He isn't consistent with things which he wants ... He can't do what he wants ... He can't get what he wants ... Hooh . She she ... . I don't like a boy like that . It isn't more than a girl dude ... But I don't know why ... I really really love him ... ! -.-" I feel , I'm as stupid as a donkey ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 27th September

I'm sick of this ... I hate this ... Why I must know him ! And the end it's become a love ... Huh . But I'm so stupid ... He has loved another girl ... I realize why I didn't know him before ... Huh . I'm really really in a bad condition ... I'm broken heart . I want to suicide ... -.-" Maybe it's better for me if I do it ...

The Rainy Heart

I don't know why but now is easily for me to sad and cry ... Is it because of Luky ? I don't know exactly but actually I'm in love with someone , but I also really really love Luky , like I said before , Luky is my death love , isn't it ??? But , I also love that nice guy too ... I'm confused ... What should I choose ? Luky or that nice guy ???

What I'm Feeling today On 26th September

Hoah . Boring . Huh I don't want to love him . I just want to love Luky only forever . I realize that I know him . Huh . I want take the time I've passed ... Can I ??? God , HELP ME !!! BTW Bandung is hot today , as hot as my heart now , but better than Jakarta exactly !

RAN's New Album-"Friday"

Songs ...
1 . Thank God It's Friday *****
2 . Karena Kusuka Dirimu *****
3 . Tunjukkanlah Cintamu featuring Shila *****
4 . Jadi Gila ****
5 . Bosan ****
6 . GOD ****
7 . Budak Cinta featuring Dewi Sandra ****
8 . Ratu Lebah ****
9 . P.S.K. *****
10. Piano featuring Andi Rianto *****
* : Bad ** : Enough *** : Okay **** : Good ***** : Very Good
I think this RAN's new album is groovier and really really good , guys , more than RAN's first album , although RAN's first album is also good , but for me , all RAN's album is the best and really really good . Buy RAN's new album is a must , I think ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 25th September

HUH ! I still like my father's adoption daughter , you know !!! And I hate this condition so much . I hate . I really really hate it !!! Huh . WTF . I can't say anything 'gain !

What I Felt Yesterday On 24th September

Today , I'm bored by the condition . Just stay at my car waiting for traffic jam ... Huh . I visit Kawah Putih at Ciwidey ... Wew ... The scenery is so beautiful ... More beautiful than Tangkuban Parahu ... I go at 11 am ... Arrive at 4 pm ... And go home at 9.30 pm . It's so long guys ... Huh . I'm bored because of my father , too . I'm like his adoption daughter !!! WTF !!!

What I Felt Yesterday On 23rd September

Yeah . Cool Bandung . I love stay at Bandung so much . Nothing can replace this place forever . This place looks like heaven . I can breathe clearly , I can do anything I want . So far this place still makes me happy and relax ...

Love Affair

I really really want to do it . I really can't survive in this confused condition . Yeah . I want quit . He who I really love can't understand me . But his friend ... He really the man who sense . He cans feel what I feel . Oh God you know that I can be melted if I find a boy like that in front of my eyes ... Must I stay at him or move to his friend ???

What I'm Feeling Today On 22nd September

Wew . I'm free ..... Yeah . Really really happy ..... Bandung is the right place for me to forget all problem or forget someone , like what I'm doing today ... Haha ... Yeah . GOD I'M SO HAPPY BECAUSE I STILL HAVE ADITYA AS MY BEST FRIEND IN MY SIDE AND I'M SO HAPPY BECAUSE I CAN HAVE RAN'S NEW ALBUM ... "FRIDAY" . BANDUNG ..... THE BEST PLACE IN THIS WORLD !

What I Felt Yesterday On 21st September

Hoah . I'm so lucky guys . Because I've Aditya beside me . Because he always helps me when I've gotta problem ... When I've gotta problem with Luky , Aditya always gives me advices ... Wow . He's so kind guys ... Very very and really really kind ... And what happened with Luky ? He's so angry to me ... I don't know why ... When I phoned him ... He rejected my phone ... and he didn't wanna answer my phone !!! Damn ... He said he was angry to me because I added his friend in Facebook named yuph ... Aditya ... He said It wasn't important ... Bla bla bla ... Suck you man ! Actually Adit isn't his close friend ... And they aren't like a friend ... So what happened with him !!! =.="

What I'm Feeling Today On 20th September

Hoah . x0 . Just stay at home . Enjoying holiday . Yeah . I've received message from Adit in Facebook . He said that he will go to his hometown , Cirebon , today ... Huh ... Sad ... Sad ... Sad ... Guys , I'm so confused . I knew him just now . And he knew me just now too . But Why I feel I had known him before ??? Maybe I'm dejavu , maybe ... Hoah ... Miss him ... T.T

What I Felt Yesterday On 19th September

Wuhhhuuu . I'm sick . Wuh ! Nothings to do . Just prepare for go to Bandung . T.T Yeah . Looking for brondong at Bandung . Hahaha . No ... I'm not as freaks as you think guys . Wakaka . BTW I miss Adit , my friend . He'll go to his hometown , Cirebon . Huuh =.=" . I can't chat with him in Facebook ... Sad ... T.T

Bored

I feel bored guys ! This weekend I just stay at home . Nothing to do . I hate this weekend ! Really really a damn weekend ever !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And my dad say that my driver will be in Jakarta again at 30th September ! I hate him ! Why he must visit her hometown . Maybe I won't go to Bnadung ! T_T I HATE !!! SHIT !!! DAMN !!!

What I'm Feeling Today On 18th September

Yippie . Bandung ! I'm very very and really really lust to go to Bandung . I can't imagine how happy I'm there ... I'll shopping at Paris Van Java , Rumah Mode , Kartika Sari , Ciwalk ... Also eat Surabi and eat at Pepper Lunch in PVJ . Maybe I'll try PVJ's Blitzmegaplex ... Wow . It's very interesting . And I'm so glad . At least I can forget my problem , my school , and Luky for a while .

Love

I didn't trust love just now . I won't believe it . It's just a story . I think love is just a shadow . It won't be true forever . I believe that love isn't a fact thing . So , I don't want to believe love . Because love had broken my heart .

What I'm Feeling Today On 17th September

Yeah my class have won 3 categories in National Bible's Month . My teacher is very and really really happy . And I'm happy too . Yeah . I've had my holiday since the competition was finish . I'm so confused why everyone always say Stefanus and me is in a relationship ??? It isn't right . It's just a gossip . God ... Today I'm so sad . When I phoned Kyky , Kyky didn't answer it , but a girl answered it . Who's that girl ??? I'm so sad . But actually this day isn't just full of sadness . Because I've chat with Adit in Face Book . I'm happy because I like him . I like to be his friend . But except that , I just had my sadness ...

What I Felt Yesterday On 16th September

Yeah . One day left . I'll get my holiday . Yeah . I'll refresh my brain which full of problem and anything . O My God . Tomorrow I'll have my competition in my school . The competition is about National Bible's Month . Yuph . Afterall I'll enjoy my holiday .

What I'm Feeling Today On 15th September

Wow . Wonderful . Today is really really a good day , guys ! I don't know why ... But I'm so happy to enjoying this day ! Lalalalala ... But when I went to school this morning , I heard a bad news . My favourite teacher named Lamria Tambunan had an accident yesterday ... And today she is absent ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 14th September

I hate . I hate . I hate him . Huuh . OMG . I love RAN so much ! I've downloaded one of RAN's new single ! Haha . It's a good song . And Rayi I LOVE YOU !!! You're so cute baby ! Haha . I'm tacky right ? Yes I am ! Yeah . I want to have my holiday quickly ! Yeah I want ! I plan to go to Bandung ! I want to go shopping for relax my body in Bandung ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 13th September

I'm just looking previous about all my mistakes and all my memories . I always feel 'so-in-love' if I remember you dear . Do you still remember it , honey ? Okay , I tell you . Do you remember when we met in mandarin course last year on November ? At the first time we didn't like each other , but finally it changed , you asked me about my handphone number , but I didn't give you , right ? And I don't know , finally I gave you my number , you phoned me at 10 pm until 12 pm , almost every day you phoned me dear , and also me too . You asked me to go with you ten times but I refused them . And you asked me to have date with you . And I refused it . Oh I realize it ! You gave me a beautiful poem . And when valentine I gave you Van Houten chocolate and you gave me a heart chocolate . Did you now i'ts so delicious , baby ? Hmmmm ... You were so sweet at that time . But why I can't feel it again this time ...

I Want To Kill This Feel !

What do you feel , especially girl , if he , your soulmate , will leave you to continue his school in foreign country ? Although , it isn't a fix decision ? Must you seem happy ? Or must you seem the opposite ? Ifeel like a freaks girl . I feel insane every time . I don't know what I must do to kill this feel . I realize that I had fallen too deep into this feel . It's better for me if I never know him , meet him , and love him . Can I take the time I've passed ? I want to kill that memory , I mean all my memories about you . Dear , look at me , see my eyes , can you feel what I feel ? Feel it and you'll know how deep I hurt ! Do you ever think about my heart if you leave me alone here ? See and think it , baby ! Can you imagine it ? I can't find another you in my heart , boy !

Friends

We always together in every condition , bad or good condition , I'll be beside you everytime you sad , I hope so you'll do the same act to me . Make me sure friends you won't leave me . I'll be with you here , and you'll be with me here forever , forever in my mind and forever in my heart . I won't leave you although in hard problem . Don't betray me so I won't betray you . Believe me and I'll believe you too . Hold me tight and I'll hold you tight . And we'll go together to heaven when the time is right .

What I'm Feeling Today On 12th September

Wow . I'm so sleepy today xo . For your information , don't be surprised if in this blog there are three songs from RAN's album . You had known I love RAN so much , right ? Yeah guys . I love all songs of RAN's album , but there are 3 songs , "Hanya Untukmu" , "Nothing Lasts Forever" , and "Warnai Malam Ini" which are the most romantist for me . Those songs are for someone special for me . He is my soulmate . If you don't know , you can find from the old posting about that boy .

What I Felt Yesterday On 11th September

Wow . Confused . Insane . Freaks . What do I choose guys , basketball or choir ? I love both of them . I don't wanna quit from choir because B*** , but in another side , I love basketball so much . My trainer offered me to join basketball extra on Thursday , but on Thursday I must present in my choir extra . Okay then , I decide to join basketball team . Because in this time I'm angry to B*** , so I'll choose basketball extra to forget that sucker . Yeah I'll join it ...

Warnai Malam Ini

Kau yang pertama hadir temani relung jiwa dan kau yang tlah menebar pesona dalam setiap suasana . Oh kasihku ingatlah kau hanya milikku , tetaplah disini kau trus bersamaku temani malam yang berlalu . Kuingin kau ada disini temani diriku warnai malam ini . Oh juwita dengarkan apa yang kukatakan padamu bukanlah bualan atau sebuah angan-angan , oh ingin hasratku kau tetap disini untukku bukan hanya sekedar di dalam mimpi seperti yang ada selama ini . Hey baby don't be shy on me now , you know I don't mean you no harm . Everybody just dance from side to side , everybody come on det down tonight . Just get on the dance floor , don't stop to the beat till I say so .

Hanya Untukmu

Oh kekasih di dadaku tersimpan hatimu , yang selalu menghiasi lembayung senjaku , dan kini ku tahu kau hadir hanya untukku , engkaulah cintaku , dan bintangpun kini kian pijarkan cahaya , sebagai pertanda saat tuk lupakan kisah lama , dan kini kau tahu ku hadir hanya untukmu , engkaulah cintaku . Dirimu adalah dewiku dapatkan cinta ini bersemi diantara kita berdua jangan ragu untuk menggapai mimpimu bersamaku jalani hidup bersama . Diriku hanya untukmu , dirimu hanya untukku . Hanya untukmu , dirimu hanya untukku , diriku hanya untukmu , dirimu hanya untukku , diriku hanya untukmu ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 10th September

Today , so many homeworks and etc . I think my head will break later . I hate that boy . He is unconsistent . He's playing in my feeling again ! Oh my God . If in this earth has one day to kill each other , he'll be a person who I kill first !!! Huh . Damn ! Stephie said to my brondong that I like him . OMG . It's not right ! How poor I am until I really like him . He's just my 'doll' you know !

What I Felt Yesterday On 9th September

Crazy !!! I can be a freaks girl !!! I don't know why Basu is so quiet to me ! Huuh . Today isn't good day because I hit by my yearn feel !!! Love Luky !!! Yuph ... I know all people who have read this article will say tacky , insane , freaks . Up to you all ..... !

Death Love

Luky is my death love !!! Nothing can replace him ! Luky is so mean to me ! Every hour , second , minute , every I breathe I just think about him and I think my heart just for him forever . Nothing can be as good as him ! I'll be faithful to him forever !!! Luky is so important more than my life . I'll do anyting for him include die . I'll do anyting which can make him always laugh . If he happy I'll be happy too . Luky can understand me .... He can speak mandarin , english , japanese , french fluently .... You think ! In this world we can count a boy like him just with our finger ! So until I die my heart belong to him !!!

Nothing Lasts Forever

Baby I know that sometimes you don't get it , why we're always torn apart , now we don't want us to get separated , because you're always in my heart , and if you love me baby then let's go crazy , let's turn this world around , oh baby I'm your man and you're my lady , loving you is what I do , because of you I feel free now . Nothing lasts forever but baby I ... I'm gonna keep comin' back to keep this love on the track . Nothing lasts forever but baby I , I'll try , so hard to keep you coming back for more ... Baby if I die today , I want you to know that I love you all the way , so baby please I'm begging you to stay , because baby you're my shining star , oh baby I will hold you tight , I'll make you feel safe every time you by my side , don't hesitate 'cause everything will be alright . Loving you is what I do , because of you I feel free now ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 8th September

NOTHING LASTS FOREVER BUT BABY I ... OMG I'M YEARNING LUKY . WHEN I CAN SEE HIS FACE AGAIN !!! I REALLY REALLY WANT TO MEET HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE HAVEN'T TALKED FOR A LONG TIME ... LUKY I LOVE YOU FOREVER !!! HUUUH THIS IS A BORING DAY EVER !

From Luky For My Birthday On 22nd Of August 2009 At 00.25

" Happy birthday ya sayang , maaf telat baru nyampe rumah , sekarang umur berapa sih ? Well makin dewasa yah , jangan cepet emosi lagi en jangan gangguin orang sibuk melulu . Pokoknya sukses selalu . Love you xoxo "

From Luky

" The sun is beautiful . It light makes our heart warm . The star is fantastic . It light makes our heart mesmerize . But you ! Nothing more beautiful and fantastic , because you melt my heart away. "

Death

If in this world we can kill our self , I want to do it . I'm so tired guys . But I'm afraid that if i kill my self Luky will hate me forever because he said if I kill my self he'll hate me forever . Even though he doesn't know about my problem . Huh =.=" What a hard life , right ? ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 7th September

Huuuuuuuuuuh . I hate someone . Freaky . It's better if I choose Basu . Wew I become a dirigen for musical director . Beuh . Actually , I want to be a mazmur singer . But fine .... Duuh . If I can kill that someone I want to kill him , he have said something bad about Basu and it's not true . See your face first . He doesn't know that until I die I'll be in Basu side ! Huuuh What The Hell !!!!

What I'm Feeling Today On 6th September

Just flashback all memories and admitting all memories can hurt . What a fool girl ... Can believe a boy who hasn't a holly heart , who likes playing with girl's feel . Shit Boy . Freaks ... I'm tired . Honestly I say that I can't forget that damn boy , but in another side Luky still be the first ... What can I do ??? Must I leave all my memories and open myself to new person ??? It won't be true . I can't do it . For you who I mean , please don't hit me with all your shadows . Can you leave me alone ??? Hurry up before all become late ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 5th September

Huuh . This weekend is so bad , Monday I'll have my Biology and PKn mid test . I don't know what to do ... Just playing facebook and twitting ... But what a pity facebook is in maintenance server ... Day is very fast , isn't it ? We'll get our new year soon . Actually and Certainly , I don't want to get my new year fast because I don't want my soulmate , my half soul go to continue his school in foreign country . I don't know what will be happen if Luky leave me ??? Yeah I'll die ... I'm not a hiperbolist person ... but all I've said was really really true ...

Rissabela , Anastasya , Christian , Dennish , Calvin

They're my best friends . But among me , Rissa , Anas , and Chris are in a hard problem . I'm so sad . Actually I love them so much as I love my cousin . Without them , I'm nothing , but shall we be quiet if someone say a bad words to you ? Yes , I'm in that problem guys ! What's wrong with them ??? I really don't know what happened with them ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 4th September

Wew ... Basu freaks , freaks , freaks , freaks . I hate him . Oyeah I heard that my blog become a gossip ... ?!? Oh fine I'll be happy to receive your good and bad comments ... Whatever ... Up to you dudes ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 3rd September

Down . Down . Down . I hate that playboy so much . First I was angry to him but finally he's angry to me too ... I hate him ... Anyway Devi said Basu looked at me when I was singing . But I DON'T CARE ... =.=" What about my rabbit ... I hope Pipi isn't sick ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 2nd September

Hufh . Down because her ... Finally at 3 pm Jakarta was earthquaked because West Java was earthquake first ... Hufhu . Ow Basu is kind ... He wanted deliver me from 1st floor to 4th floor ... And by the way I love social science so much ... So I'll go to STAN when I'm in university ... Pray for me dudes ...

What I'm Feeling Today On 1st September

I'm down because of my friends , they said I'm in relationship with my best friend , Stefanus , it's freaky , right ??? I'm yearning Luky , guys , I'm afraid that he will go to Bei Jing next year ... Huh ... I'm tired ... I miss him ...

Anjasmara

Anjas sekelas ma gw . Doi lucu , baek , cakep , tapii bokep . Gw emang sempet suka ma doi tapii dulu karena ternyata doi makin lama makiin childish . Padahal Fira is a girl without childish boy . Doi ksiian karena bonyok nya udah gag ada .

Bondan Wirajaya

Bondan alumni Paulus , sekarang doi di Gandy Ancol kelas X . Gw emank sempet suka ma Bondan tapii bentar doank karena udah terlanjur jadii benci . Gara-gara doi , gw ma mantan sahabat gw , Rissabela , berantem dan gag deket lagii .

William Indra Putra

Biasa dipanggil IP . Doi ketos . Pintar , baek , cakep , cute , tapii sayang udah punya cewe namanya Brenda . Gw pernah digosipin suka sama doi , tapii gw rasa para penggosip itu salah . Padahal gw cuma ngefans sama doi .

Mohamad Pradana Aditya

Doi ank kelas XII IPA SMAN 77 . Doi baek , emang sii gw belum ketemu doi , tapii baeknya doi uda berasa mulai dari pertama kalii gw jadii friend doi di Facebook . Enak diajak chatting atao ngobrol . Dan sekarang gw mau tau tentang Aditya lebih dalam .

Kevin Jaya Darfian

Gw bingung ya sama temen-temen gw . Masa gw dibilang suka ma Kevin Jaya Darfian alias KJD alias Jaya ???? Gag banged lagi cuy ... Lagiian doi cuma sahabat gw doank . Twu gag gara-gara doi , sahabat gw , Anastasya , marah + cemburu buta ma gw en Jaya . Doi cakep , baek , pintar , hampiir semua temen-temen cw gw suka ma doi . Huuh . Pokoknya gag ada harii tanpa Jaya lah di sekolah gw .

Andrew Christian Widjaya

Doi first love gw . Gw mulaii suka doi dari kelas 2 sampaii 4 SD . Sampai akhirnya digantiin Febry . Doi baek en dket banged ma gw pas kelas 2 SD , tapii gtw napa doi berubah sejak kita naek kelas 3 SD . Haha yasudlah , doi cuma masa lalu gw , paling-paling cuma bisa bikin ketawa pas flashback masa lalu ajah .

Kevin Lukito

Kevin Lukito atau biasa dipanggil KL sekolah di Gandy Ancol . Doi ganteng , baek , respect , pecinta Twilight . Kita pertama kali ketemu di tempat les mandarin , Mandarin Expert . Pas itu kita ketemu sebelum ada Luky , kita deket banged , dan sempet naksir-naksiran . Tapi setelah kehadiran Luky semua berubah , gw udah gag suka sama doi lagi . Sejak itu gw cuma anggap doi sahabat gw karena doi baek banged mw jadi dokter cinta bwt gw .

Febry Wilyanto

Ini nii cowo yang gantiin posisi si Andrew di hati gw . Sayangnya sekarang doi lagi di Papua . Kayaknya bakal lama deh . Hiks ... Hiks ... Ya jadi gini pas naek kelas 6 gw mulai ada rasa suka ma doi . Mpe akhirnya gw fanatik banged sama Febry .

Luky Hermawan

Gw suka banged ma nii cwo , baek , pinter , hargain cewe , doi banged sii , tapii gw mulai gag suka klao doi udah beda-bedain orang . Sayang taon depan dia kuliah di Bei Jing . Sekarang doi kelas XII IPS di SMAN 77 . Lucu en ketawa gw kalo inged-inged dia . Panggilan kesayangan gw buat doi adalah AFGAN . Wkwk . Padahal dia paling bete kalo dipanggil Afgan atau Uky . akhirnya gw putuskan untuk manggil doi Kyky . " Biar beda ma yang laen " , jadi alibi gw ke doi . Gw juga dpet panggilan kesayangan dari dia , yaitu babi . Yang lucu pertama kali gw ma doi twu pribadi masing-masing awalnya kita gag saling suka malah gw gelii liat doi yang sok keren . Eh lama-lama jadi suka en sayang banged d . Sedih banged , yuph , kata yang pertama kali muncul dalam benak gw saat gw denger doi mw kuliah di Bei Jing . Karena gw gag mw kepisah ma doi . Gw udah sayang ma doi setengah matii . Tapi cinta kan butuh pengorbanan , jadi gw relain aja orang yang paling gw sayang berhasil di masa depan ...

Salomon Quarum Basudewa

Basudewa adalah salah satu laki-laki maksud gw cwo yang pernah mengisi hidup gw . Doi playboy tapi gtw knapa gw gag bisa lepas dari nama orang itu . Doi itu brengsek tapi apa boleh dikata ... gw kemakan ma omongan gw ndiri ... Eh ujungnya gw malah suka ma tuh anak . Sebenernya anaknya baek tapi sayangnya doi gag bisa liat cewe bening dikit . Asal loe loe pada tw aje , gw ma dy baru putus pas hari Jumat tanggal 28 kemaren . Sedih ? gag ... seneng ? gag . Gw itu goblok . Padahal gw twu doi suka ma cewe namanya Ellen . Cewe baek tapi kadang-kadang lebai aja . But ... gw ragu juga di facebook doi curhat di fb nya tepat dimana hari gw ma doi putus ... dia bilang " Gw emang msi sayang ma lu ... malah gw cinta ma lu ... tapi gw jauh lebih cinta temen-temen ma keluarga gw untuk menghabiskan masa muda gw " Kira-kira kalimat itu deh yang bakal loe liat pas Jumat kemaren di fb doi . Gw mwu banged sii lupain dya tapi hehe ... gag bisa gw ... ;p